So I don't know if I ever mentioned this to you all, but I had told myself that I wouldn't weigh myself again until after I finished this three week program of hell that I'm on. But I'm glad I broke that rule because it showed me that I lost 5 pounds in the first week, which is what people generally said had happened, and it also motivated me to lose the last 15 this book promises.
Today is the first day that I've been following the recipes in the book fully, and they are delicious. I almost caused a small fire by trying to make a sweet potato in the microwave... It still smells a little burnt in here and I know that my mom is going to ask about it.
I don't have much to say today except that I am planning a motivation wall. I confided in one of my best friends yesterday about my goals and my insecurities and he was probably the nicest person I could have told them too. He's also an inspiration of mine because he lost twenty pounds this year and is currently as chiseled as an abercrombie model... He'd probably be one too, if only he were taller than 5'8. But we were talking about the gym and I sort of slipped up and mentioned how I had a goal weight, which is a good bit below my current, and he immediately caught up on and started to ask me questions. When I mentioned that I wanted to lose almost 50 pounds, he hugged me and told me I could do it.
Later in the night, when we were working on his final paper, it became so much better because we were talking about who we thought was pretty and/or handsome (we have no limits with each other) and he stopped mid sentence and looked at me and said this:
"You know Becca, you're really pretty right now. When you get to your goal, you're going to be SMOKING HOT!"
I know it's weird to be motivated by that, but I never considered that I would be one of those people that people would think was hot. And I am really hoping that it comes true, but I know I have a long trip to go before I really start to lose weight at higher levels. I think what I'm going to do when I get back from my cousin's graduation is start on a calorie-counting diet again. I know you all will tell me that it's terrible for me to do so, but I'll increase my caloric intake and I'll look for more balanced, protein-based food. I'll probably start relying a lot on shakes.
I've decided that my goal is to be under 175 by the time I go on vacation with my friends in a month. I know that's a big goal to have, but I feel like I have a lot of water weight to lose and it'll go by fairly quickly. I also really want that wow factor from my friends. This means I'll be eating protein shakes, protein bars, and these meals for dinner that I used last time. And I promise that before I go on vacation, I will take another picture and compare it to the first so you all can see a difference, which I hope that I will.
I keep making so many future plans, and I am slightly afraid that I won't keep any of them. There's a small part of my mind that keeps asking me what is different this time. Why could I get to that goal this time if I kept stopping all the other times? And the reason is that I got comfortable last time. I feel like I'll need to keep changing up my method of attack, but I'm hoping that the motivation wall I'm creating will help me a lot!
I do still have one jumpstart exercise left to do today, and that will happen after I let my lunch settle a little. For now, I'm munching on a banana and I need to go finish unpacking and print out a few things I'm going to put up on my motivation wall! Love you all <3
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