So, with my first 30-day before and after photo only... 10 days away, I think, I had my first moment where I've really realized what I'm doing and the effect it's already had. My mom had a rough night last night, seeing as her best friend from college was hospitalized after collapsing drunk and fighting the police, and I spent a large chunk of time telling her how amazing she was that, even after her friend pulled away, she stilled loved her like there had never been any distance between them.
It was during a hug that my mom looked down at me, teary eyed, and told me that there was definitely less of me to hold onto. Now, this normally would sound like someone who had no idea about what was happening, but my mom has been with me every step of the way, and I've even gone as far as to show her the before picture that will haunt me until I reach my goal. And I know that she wouldn't tell me that if she didn't mean it.
And, with another weigh in only two days away, I'm feeling more confident. I can't wait to see the side by side of my weight loss, and I'm only hoping that I can keep eating healthy when I am at my cousin's graduation. I'll obviously indulge, but I know that the key is moderation, except in veggies and lean protein!
We are eating at a trout place, which is apparently very well known for fish, so I am SO excited about that!
On the other side of good things happening to me, I'm learning to control cravings. I satisfied my need for pasta by having a 200 calorie bowl with less than 25 calories worth of cheese for lunch. Granted, today I've had more carbs than I usually do because I also had a serving of oatmeal for breakfast (with scrambled egg whites, of course), but I am looking forwards to a protein shake for dinner that should satisfy any sweet cravings I have. I've basically stolen my brother's protein powder for shakes because that little extra makes the smoothie taste amazing. I'm currently obsessed with the following recipe:
1 tablespoon peanut butter
1 scoop protein powder
1 banana cut up
1/2 cup almond milk
ice cubes (to your liking)
It's pretty low calorie, but I use it more as a meal than a snack. I have a goal to, by the end of the summer, have a collection of weight-healthy recipes that I can combine into a book for myself at home so that when I have the urge to eat something that I would generally eat an unhealthy amount of, I'll eat a more moderate sized portion of something healthy that contains or mimics my craving. I can feel my upper body has become so much leaner than before, and I know that my curves are shrinking. For now, I'll leave you with this message. <33 Thanks for reading and letting me imagine I have some form of support that I don't have to face in person.
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