Haha I suck again, but it's been finals time, so I am giving myself a lot of leniency. For example, today I had a panera sandwhich and ice cream for dinner, but I know that it was to celebrate my last night at school, so I'm not upset with myself. I'm also going to be finishing off other left overs from last weekend, so I won't complain.

But tomorrow, I am going strict again! I promise.

I did make it to the gym today and managed to get in 45 minutes of spinning and one of Harper's workouts. I did

5x (total):

10 burpees
15 arm dips
25 jumpropes

Gotta pack now though, so deuces!

Day 5: Sorry, it's finals time

So sorry I've been terrible at keeping promises guys. Finals start tomorrow, and so I am a very stressed little college student, but I figured I'd give you a quick update and just show that I am not depriving myself. Just to treat myself for all my hardwork I've done preparing for the four finals I'm taking in the next two days, I let myself have a cupcake at dinner!

Carbs! At dinner!

But that was the only thing and otherwise I ate a burger patty, two eggs, and soy noodles. I'll try to post a longer thing tomorrow, but I have an exam in less than 11 hours and I need sleep.

Love you all, my imaginary followers <3

Day 4: Whoops I missed a day

So while I didn't blog about day 3, I certainly didn't skip it. It's my most difficult day, scheduling wise, but I still managed to make it to the gym and eat healthy, which I am so proud of. I don't really remember what I ate, but I know that to make up for skipping posting yesterday, I'll do two today. I'm trying to keep myself on track, and right now that includes blogging because this is a motivational force. The big thing I've noticed is that I already feel like I am down a bit, width wise. I can see it in the workout shirt I'm wearing today and the fact that it is a bit loose on me.

It's also my favorite shirt for when I need motivation. It says "Classy, sassy, and a bit smart assy"

It's very me.

Either way, I'm worried with finals coming up about whether or not I'll be able to keep myself to this diet. I know that once I get home, I can start trying all the delicious recipes that Harper has in his book, but for now I am stuck estimating. I don't know if I'm actually under 800 calories like I should be because my school doesn't give nutritional information, but I'm getting as close to it as possible, knowing what I know about foods.

Today is another extra workout at the gym, and I'm kind of excited for this one. The soreness in my thighs has FINALLY gone away, but I used up my two days of no extra workouts for this week. Oh well. I know that tonight, well, afternoon because I am leaving straight from class, I am going to do the following:

45 minutes cardio (I'm really digging the spin bike even if my butt is a bit sore)
5x the following:

10 burpees

15 chair dips

25 jump ropes (I stole my friend's haha) 

I'm supposed to time how long it takes me to do all that, and then see if I can beat it the next time that I do those workouts. My biggest fear for when I go home is that my friends will try to encourage me to eat unhealthy and that my mom will get sick of these recipes, but I can handle myself for sure. I'm also going to start working again, and that scares me because all we do at work is eat. People bring in more and more food and I don't have the greatest self control :/

For now though, I guess this is enough ranting about how nervous I am. I have to focus on how well I'm doing! Which is really well, if how my clothes fit is any indication! I'll leave all you beautiful, imaginary viewers with some more motivation!

 

Day 2: The Soreness Sets In

Let me just start with, I have 13 page views today. I don't know if that's because you can still find this blog through blogger or what, but omg I have 13 page views. I was not expecting that! I don't know if it's a good thing or not, but I don't really mind.

Anyways, onto my day. I am certainly feeling all of the squats that I did yesterday! My thighs feel like jell-O every time I start walking up stairs or slopes, so I took one of my two days off for the week from doing any extra exercises. I still did my 45 minutes on the bike though. I also didn't get much sleep last night, and I have a chem test tomorrow morning so I figured I should at least get part of a post done before I get immersed in studying.

So far today, I've had:

2 eggs over hard
2 slices of American cheese
2 halves of a biscuit
Silk chocolate soymilk
an apple
and a 100 calorie greek yogurt.

I'm thinking for dinner I'm going to have a nice salad, and grab a few pieces of fruit that I can munch on for the rest of the night as I study hard and get ready for a test that comes three days before FINALS. It makes such little sense to me. :/

I'll maybe add another post tomorrow, but if I don't, LOVE YOU ALL AND KEEP MOTIVATED!

Day 1: Adding a bit more

Okay, so I feel fairly accomplished for today. I'm going to list everything I ate just because I need to see if I'm still going to feel accomplished after I write it out. Hopefully I will.

Breakfast:
1/4 cup granola
1 cup yogurt

Snack:
Apple

Lunch:
Small salad with balsamic dressing
chicken and guacamole

Snack:
Apple
1 tablespoon peanut butter

Dinner:
Omelet with american cheese
celery
cucumbers
strawberry yogurt

Overall, I don't think I kept under 800 calories, but this was added on with a 45-minute time on the bike and then doing 20 minutes of Harper's basic AMRAP, which is the following:

20 sit-ups (he has a special version)
15 air squats
10 pushups

So I think I am at a pretty large calorie deficit anyways. I am so looking forwards to going home and being able to try all of these meals that he has come up with. It's going to be hard to stay away from all of the ice cream and deserts that my school has to offer, but I think that I can manage it. From now on, I'm only going to have egg white omelets, which should definitely help me drop a few more calories. I just gotta keep thinking about that party in three and a half weeks, and how amazing I will look if I can drop the 20 pounds before then.

For now, I'm going to go fill up my waterbottle and then get to work on a sociology paper that is going to drive me absolutely insane. NIGHT ALL MY BEAUTIFUL, INVISIBLE FOLLOWERS <3

Day 1: Just a quick thought

So I am realizing something while I sit on this workout bike, completely unaware that I would come to this realization. The last time I tried to lose weight, I didn't think much about what I would be like when I got there. I'm very far from my goal and only just started, but a part of me is scared to see what I'll be like when I get there. I'm also scared that there are more views than my own on this page because I'm not comfortable to tell my story yet. I don't need to tell my story to be successful but I am trying to teach myself new habits the idea that others can see where I fail is scary. Today is an insecure day, and I write this as I'm doing my 45 minute workout with someone behind me. I know I will write more later because this is therapeutic, but I figured I should share the article that started this thought process. Enjoy xoxo

http://thoughtcatalog.com/2012/i-dont-know-how-to-be-a-skinny-girl/

Day 0: Starting Over

So I mentioned to all of you that my mom was going to get me the jumpstart to skinny rule book, right? Well, she did and I have spent the last five days that I've had it thinking about every rule and figuring out how I could implement it because I have no way to follow this meal plan for the first week. So I've just decided I am going to wing it and keep track of the calories and stay under his limit for the first week. Sounds close enough, right?

Plus, if I wait to start it until I get home, I'm realizing that I won't be finished in time for my cousin's graduation, and the goal right now is to look extremely good at his party and show off to my whole family because I have always been the chubby cousin.

So I'm starting from Day 1 again tomorrow. That means only 800 calories a day, 45 minutes of low-intensity cardio (I think I'm just going to sit on a spin bike and distract myself), and doing this all with only the Shape Up! app on my phone to keep track of calories that I consume. Oh, and I plan to finish at least two nalgienes of water a day again. I've been slacking lately, but yesterday was our spring concert and it was a marathon! Because certain things are illegal, I will not mention what I did, but let me just say that it started at 7 am and lasted until after midnight.

... And I tried to sprint half of it. Not a good idea.

So I know that if I have anyone reading this, they'll probably yell at me for the 800 calories thing, which I know my amazing friends will do, but I don't want you all to worry. This is a short, jumpstart kind of thing and I will resume eating healthier amounts of food once I have kicked some of my terrible habits and are finally able to enjoy being lighter and feeling better. I don't plan to stay this low, especially with exercise, and I do plan on eating all the "free" veggies he suggests I use as snack, and I plan on doing that often.

Speaking of this though, I've decided that I am going to make myself an inspiration wall when I get home. I need something to wake up to every day to remind myself that I can reach my goals and that I will feel better when I get there. I've starting to pin some things on Pinterest, but I'll print them out when I get home.

Also, because I feel like this is me starting a new year, I'm going back to trying to make mouthwash happen twice a day. My teeth have felt a little weird, and I think that it might be because I haven't been doing that as much as I used to. So for now, I need to take the birth control I forgot to take, and then check how many mg are in my fish oil chews, and then head to bed.

Wish me luck tomorrow, because I definitely think I am going to need it.